It's been a helter-skelter 2 weeks or so, so much has happened in my personal life to give thanks for, little mercies that saved the day more than once and a few confirmations that a die-hard attitude is something, that although may be seen as overly powerful to some, to be proud of as the rewards are beneficial in the end. This not only relates to my journey to health and weight loss utopia, but I have applied it across the Prava-board, in my relationship with my husband, my work, the manner that I deal with my childrens' educators and generally any situation where I have a gut feel that it's going to turn around beneficially! (Mind you, there have been many a situation where my gut feel has been let down, but there has been no harm in my trying, resulting in me being more the wiser, sometimes with a bruised ego, but such is life I guess, a continual learning process!)
While I have been overly cautious in the recent past with my journey, the frustration that I felt 2 weeks ago is now gone, the weight loss is steady and I feel fantastic medically, with my physician being very supportive and encouraging me to stay the course, for my own benefit. My body is starting to take shape! I have curves and bumps that are now becoming more defined and I am feeling bones in places that I never knew could have bones!
Every so often, I have some chill time, a time for me and me alone, where I bare my very heart, mind and soul in taking pen to paper in my personal notebook, a kind of memoir that I hope my boys will one day read and share that ''unknown' part of my life, through my writings. I love that freedom to explore me in a private space where there are no interruptions and it is in this space that I reflect too, every so often.
It's a time where I look back on the experiences, my thoughts and feelings over that particular period under review, what I did right, what I did wrong, what I didn't conquer, why didn't I conquer it, what had I learned new, what did I do to inspire others, what did I teach my children on their journey in life, have I been a supportive partner in my husbands' endeavours, could I have done better in my endeavours, how have I helped to encourage and foster good relationships, how I deal with negativity in all spheres of my life, gradually becoming aware of my short-comings and looking at ways to turn them into positives. Basically a structured focus on my thoughts and experiences, a kind of learning tool, associated with my actions, thoughts and feelings and a way of assisting me to work through these, gain new understandings, fresh insights and more importantly, self-awareness. Coming out of that space often leaves me feeling cleansed and renewed, ready to tackle the challenges of the next few days or weeks, until my next reflection sojourn!
So as I retreat into myself for a while, I encourage you to do the same, it's therapeutic indeed and an exercise of importance in your (learning) journey through life!
Self-reflection is the catalyst for change!
If self-reflection seems difficult, acceptance of failure will feel nearly impossible
John Hamm
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